Black Moustache a little piece of kannitha alifia

Z.

Untuk seseorang yang begitu aku kagumi.

Ini adalah tulisan pertamaku, 
Jujur, aku tidak pandai menyusun kata. 
Membuat suatu rangkaian kalimat yang mampu membuatmu terpukau.
Aku juga tidak pandai untuk melakukan sesuatu yang dapat membuat matamu berhenti beberapa detik menatap kearahku.

Tapi entah.
Kedua jari ini dengan cepatnya mengetik ketika dikepala terbayang satu objek, yang selalu ada disana. 

Kamu.

Aku mengagumi mu sejak aku menyadari bahwa ada perasaan aneh yang ku rasakan ketika mata kita saling menatap meski hanya sepersekian detik.
Tidak butuh banyak kata untuk mendeskripsikan kamu.
Hati sudah tau jawabannya.

Tak perlukan aku buatkan puisi indah atau lagu romantis? Aku tidak pandai dibidang itu,
Yang aku tahu. Aku suka menulis sesukaku tentang kamu. Tanpa batasan. 

Terima kasih sudah membuatku percaya,
percaya akan diriku. Kedatanganmu membuatku merasakan hal yang belum pernah aku rasakan sebelumnya :
Menjadi diri sendiri.
Mengagumimu membuatku jatuh cinta akan diriku sendiri.
Mengenal lebih dalam tentang apa yang membuatku bahagia.
Ternyata kamu salah satu caranya.

Semoga hal - hal baik berdatangan untuk kamu begitupun aku.
Semoga hal - hal baik mengizinkan kita untuk selalu bersama,
Saling menyadarkan masing - masing bahwa kita berharga.
Semoga.


Jakarta, 12 September 2021

my favorite letter,

 “I’ve read hundreds of novels in my life, most of them claiming that love was the center of the universe. That it could heal any damage inside of us. That it was what we needed to survive. From Darcy to Heathcliff, I thought they were fools. That love was something fictional, only found in worn pages of a book. That it was just made up to keep humans full of hope, that it was a lie. But all that changed since I met my Elizabeth Bennett. I never thought I would find myself completely and utterly consumed by another until her. She took my hand and led me out of the darkness and showed me that, whatever our souls are made of, hers and mine are the same.

I’m sorry, please forgive me.
You once asked me who I loved most in this world.
It’s you.

— Hardin ( Movie- "After" - Hardin's letter to Tessa )”

all i ask

I will leave my heart at the door
I won't say a word..
They've all been said before, you know
So why don't we just play pretend
Like we're not scared of what is coming next or scared of having nothing left!

Look, don't get me wrong
I know there is no tomorrow
All I ask is...

If this is my last night with you
Hold me like I'm more than just a friend
Give me a memory I can use
Take me by the hand while we do what lovers do
It matters how this ends
'Cause what if I never love again?


I don't need your honesty
It's already in your eyes and I'm sure my eyes, they speak for me
No one knows me like you do
And since you're the only one that matters
Tell me who do I run to?


Look, don't get me wrong!
I know there is no tomorrow
All I ask is

If this is my last night with you
Hold me like I'm more than just a friend
Give me a memory I can use
Take me by the hand while we do what lovers do
It matters how this ends
Cause what if I never love again?


Let this be our lesson in love
Let this be the way we remember us
I don't wanna be cruel or vicious
And I ain't asking for forgiveness
All I ask is...

If this is my last night with you
Hold me like I'm more than just a friend
Give me a memory I can use
Take me by the hand while we do what lovers do
It matters how this ends


'Cause what if I never love again?

will you love me, even with my darkside?

there's a place that I know
It's not pretty there and few have ever gone
If I show it to you now
Will it make you run away?

Or will you stay
Even if it hurts?

Even if I try to push you out
Will you return?
And remind me who I really am
Please remind me who I really am

Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?


Like a diamond
From black dust
It's hard to know
What can become
If you give up
So don't give up on me
Please remind me who I really am

Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?


Don't run away
Don't run away
Just tell me that you will stay
Promise me you will stay
Don't run away
Don't run away
Just promise me you will stay
Promise me you will stay

the fault in our stars

“Oh, I wouldn’t mind Hazel Grace. It would be a privilege to my heart broken by you.”

“My thoughts are stars I cannot fathom into constellations.”

“Gus, my love, I cannot tell you how thankful I am for our little infinity. I wouldn’t trade it for the world. You gave me a forever within the numbered days, and I’m grateful.” 

 “I’m in love with you, and I’m not in the business of denying myself the simple pleasure of saying true things. I’m in love with you, and I know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable, and that we’re all doomed and that there will come a day when all our labor has been returned to dust, and I know the sun will swallow the only earth we’ll ever have, and I am in love with you.”

“But I believe in true love, you know? I don’t believe that everybody gets to keep their eyes or not get sick or whatever, but everybody should have true love, and it should last at least as long as your life does.”

 “As he read, I fell in love the way you fall asleep: slowly, and then all at once.”

“You don’t get to choose if you get hurt in this world…but you do have some say in who hurts you. I like my choices.” 
“Some people don’t understand the promises they’re making when they make them,” I said. “Right, of course. But you keep the promise anyway. That’s what love is. Love is keeping the promise anyway.” 
“Because you are beautiful. I enjoy looking at beautiful people, and I decided a while ago not to deny myself the simpler pleasures of existence” 
“You realize that trying to keep your distance from me will not lessen my affection for you. All efforts to save me from you will fail.”
 “You say you’re not special because the world doesn’t know about you, but that’s an insult to me. I know about you.”
I will not tell you our love story, because—like all real love stories—it will die with us, as it should.” 

colorblind.

When the world is seeing yellow, I only see grey
When everybody sees the rainbow, I'm stuck in the rain
You take a little piece of me every time you leave
I don't think that I'll ever find that silver lining or reason to smile

You know I used to paint such vibrant dreams now I'm colorblind, colorblind 
When did my heart get so full of never mind, never mind
Did you know that you stole the only thing I needed
Always black and white in my eyes, I'm colorblind

Ain't it funny that you managed to just wash away
Even pictures that you're not in have started to fade
I try to play my favourite songs, but I can't sing along

The words don't feel the same
You've taken all the best things from me and thrown them away

You know I used to paint such vibrant dreams now I'm colorblind, colorblind 
When did my heart get so full of never mind, never mind
Did you know that you stole the only thing I needed
Always black and white in my eyes, I'm colorblind

I'll wait for roses to be red again
And I hate that you took my blue from the ocean
Give me back green greens and goldens
My purples, my blues, you stole them
How long will I be broken

You know I used to paint such vibrant dreams now I'm colorblind, colorblind 
When did my heart get so full of never mind, never mind
Did you know that you stole the only thing I needed
Only black and white in my eyes, I'm colorblind

It's only black and white in my eyes
I'm colorblind

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY, JUSTIN DREW BIEBER !



Happy 20th birthday to the boy that I have always and will always love. You mean the world to me and being able to watch you grow and succeed has been one of the best parts of this journey and I am so happy to be apart of it. I've been with you since the beginning and I will be with you until the end. I can't even begin to express how proud I am of you, you've accomplished more in 6 years than what most people wish to accomplish in a lifetime. I will continue to support you through the good, the bad, and most importantly the music. I want to wish Justin the most amazing and happy birthday. It’s crazy to think that you’re 20 this year...where has the time gone? I can’t thank you enough for all that you have done for me. Been here since the beginning & I will be here until the end. Love you forever and I hope you have the best day today.